FREEDOM!!!

Today is the first day to be far enough away from my house to be relaxed since the wreck. My grandmother has it in her head that the doctor told me that I couldn't drive for some odd reason. I kind of understand that she wants me to be safe and everything but I was getting a little bit stir crazy. If you remember from the summer I was going crazy being in the same place all of the time not being able to go anywhere by myself. It was a good time for me then because the peoople I was always around were people who were lifting me up and driving me forward. I feel as if my grandmother is holding me down and not exactly pushing me towards being my own person. It's strange to be in a world and college where they encourage you to be your own person. To have your own dreams and ambitions, but then, to go home and have some family members that don't want you to grow up in any way. I'm not really too sure why she is this way. Probably because of my grandfather. I know I mentioned him as a request for many of you to bed the Big Boss about. He has had a few strokes and some other handicaping diseases so he is not the social person he used to be. Right now he is ambling around the house, not able to talk, not really thinking straight, and pretty much driving my grandmother mad. My sister and myself are the only people she can really talk to because we live with her. (That's a long story. The short end is our parents divorced and she went to live with my grandmother when she was 4. I was kicked out of my house when I was 19 and she took me in because I couldn't survive then.) I have told her time and again that I will be leaving soon and my sister has said a few things about getting a place of her own and that seems to kind of tear her down a little bit. I can't do this much longer though. I feel trapped sometimes. They don't always go to church because of my sister's problems or my grandfather. That doesn't helpt me a whole lot. It is just going to take continual prayer from myself and people like you. Keep all of us before the Boss. I love you all and thank the One who made us for you. Mizpah